Friends

I am not a match simply waiting to burn
All I am is your friend, your friend till the end

My thought for today is basically about friends and friendships in general, how I really feel about friends, how hard it is to really build a good one, and how lonely it can get even if you have friends

 Growing up, I am not the most outspoken person and that affected lots of what I can remember of friends when I was younger, I was always a nerd and would rather be at home than go out, I still am but at least it's getting better slowly but steadily. I am very lucky to have been born into a community where my parents have people they share the same religious values with, as I result I always have people my age around me as a result of one outing or the other, but I didn't really make friends with them because I was always just there 
I am a kind of person that's everyone's friend, but no one's friend, I'm sure some can relate to that, I hate opening up about my insecurities and prefers laughing through it all outside and crying myself to sleep... 
  In the past few months, due to the time I have had to myself to self reflect, and with the age I turned this year, I feel like it's high time I got rid of the loneliness I have always felt no matter how much I push it back, to build a more intentional relationship, prioritize my friends and their feelings, let go of people that drain me a lot without really adding any value, be my authentic self and not pretend, no matter the people around me, make friends that'll talk about how they really feel about me and won't feel offended when being corrected either, make people feel more loved around me, feel less cringe when I tell them how much they matter to me and most importantly pray for them in my most intimate moments with Allah, to protect and always be with them... I want to be able to forgive myself for my mistakes and let go of hard feelings as much as I can.. 
  I don't know how or where I'll start but I'm sure Allah will guide me through, and I'll try my best not to compromise my moral and Islamic beliefs in this process, it's a long process of self discovery and I'm willing to take the path... 

And you should too, if this piece resonates with you🙂


Surah Al-Kahf, Verse 13:
نَّحْنُ نَقُصُّ عَلَيْكَ نَبَأَهُم بِالْحَقِّ إِنَّهُمْ فِتْيَةٌ آمَنُوا بِرَبِّهِمْ وَزِدْنَاهُمْ هُدًى
We relate to you their story with the truth; surely they were youths who believed in their Lord and We increased them in guidance.

With lots of love, 
©Sofiyyah Luqman ✨🥂🦋

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